Reblog: What a contrast.

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Reblog: What a contrast.
Christine Chiu


What a contrast.
What a contrast between this year and the last.  This whole year, I've just been walking through a season of refining, weakness & brokenness.  The outpourings of love and intimacy of last year are barely sustaining me now.  I can't live off stale bread.  My times with the Lord have become an aimless and fractic search for good soil upon which my roots may be planted and grounded firmly.  Slowly, the leaves are losing its nutrients.  I have hardly anymore love & grace to give.  I can't find it.  I can't find that place.  Perhaps, He's doing this so that my roots dig deeper, reach out wider, implant themselves more securely?  Perhaps, within the frantic search, Jesus is drawing me to fight harder, to press into Him more fervantly, to fight unceasingly.  In that sense, what may seem as an aimless search has actually been a guided one all along & more than that...by one of the best Guiders of them all.  & thus, my roots become ever more rooted and grounded.  Yea, maybe that's it.  I'm trying to make sense of something that makes no sense to me right now.  I don't want to be grasping at air in my times with You anymore.
Jesus, draw ever close to me.


"I know you don't come as easy as some...
But I will watch and pray
I will watch and pray."