Merced.

As a heads up, this is not the note on which I tell of what is going on. That will be posted when I feel I am ready to put it all out.
I'm madly in love with Mercedians. They are so funny and really uplifting. It's only been half a day and I find myself feeling somewhat better. Driving up here in the A.M.s was surprisingly not hard at all. I drove the whole way up and I still was wide awake when I got here. I know that most of this awake-ness is coming from just having my thoughts racing all around my head.
All of this confusion and frustration is affecting me in ways that just are getting me more and more jacked up. My attitude is noticeably bad, to at least those who know me well enough, but I think as I start just chilling with Merced peeps more and more, I'm able to suppress a lot of these emotions that are consuming me.
Jackie, Cat, and Irving are all KTFO'd after a long night, well sort of. But I'm still wide awake and just trying to get my mind off of things. I pray that this would soon be gone, but that's just a wild dream.

"I'm desperate for your touch,
Never needed you so much,
Cause all I want is You"
oh God help me.