Living Life Without Regrets.

It's easier said than done.

Although I've always said that I live my life without any regrets, I recently realized that there are so many things I regret doing... or not doing. This past week has been one giant test, from my spring break freedom to the battles of my mind and soul, I've slowly picked up pieces of my past. Like pieces of a torn picture, I've tried to piece together pieces of my life and I see now all of these mistakes that I've made.
There are so many things that I wish I did better... so many things I wish I had taken that leap of faith and actually done something rather than sit and watch. And now I lay here and suffer from the repercussions. Sure the Lord definitely has his plans on why I didn't do what I thought I should've done, and for that I'm eternally grateful that I didn't really make a mistake. But coming from reality to what I wish things were like, I've strayed too far.
Maybe thats the beauty of it, we dream big, when in reality nothing could come close to it but we still push ourselves to our limits to reach that goal but always falling short. But God's plan wasn't supposed to be our big dream but rather where we've actually reached. None-the-less it's pretty disappointing knowing that big dreamers tend to never reach their goals, and thus we live a life filled with big and small regrets.

I am strong enough.

Went to Night of Champions @ APU today with my church.
One of the speakers was April Holmes 2008 Paralympian Gold Medalist. And during her short message she kept saying one thing that stuck onto me for the rest of the night.
"The reason I am going through these things is because God believes that I am strong enough"
In this time of confusion and desperation (of the Lord) I realize that through these trials and tribulations, I keep asking the Lord, "why me? why do I have to go through these things" or "I've learned my lesson so please take it away now" and now I realize why He is still taking me through these things. It's because I am strong enough to conquer it all, and I can grow to be even stronger to take on harder problems. I guess I don't really have to know His purpose in all of this, but I do know that I have all I need, I have the confidence from the Lord that I am strong enough.

"Lord I don't know what You're doing. I don't like being in the situation that I'm in now. But I'm offering You my heart, do what You will in it. Tear down every last bit if You want, but Lord continue to speak to me. And I have confidence that one day I'll reach that light at the end of the tunnel, until then I find comfort knowing that You believe that I am strong enough."

Mad Air and 180s.

Alright I got the Mad air but no 180s...

Boarding was legit today. Snow wasn't bad but I started off with horrible runs. As the day progressed I started to catch more and more air and better timed landings. Attempted some 180s (frontside and backside) but face planted each time (praise the Lord for helmets).
The day ended with my almost losing my phone (someone returned it to lost and found just as I was leaving) and I'm injured all over the place. In between my bicep and shoulder muscles on my right arm there's a sharp pain that occurs each time I move it. It hurts so bad and I don't think it's normal. (any help?)
Overall it was a good day, but with it came many physical sacrifices (nearly sprained ankle and wrist). Maybe one of these days I'll get those 180s down.

I still have about a month left in my season pass. JOIN ME.

Lord of all creation...

After a long 40 hours with just a slight bit of sleep, I remember my frustration kept on piling up, until I could no longer hold it in. Everything seemed to be going wrong, I didn't understand the material that I was studying, I only ate two meals the first being breakfast sunday morning and the last being some instant pasta monday night, but I drank lots of coke probably over 100 ozs (i kept getting refills on my burger king cup that I held throughout both days).
But on monday morning right before my first final, I just had this urge to open up the Word and read. The truth is, I've been heavily slacking on my devotional life. I know the Lord is definitely starting to lift me back up after one of the most intense quarters that I've ever had. From great emotional battles, to the heavy stress of school work and internship and work, I felt like I was being worn down and yet I still found strength in the Lord.
The honest reason of why I am still standing, is because the Lord definitely provides. Thank God that I'm finally done!

early in the morning, I will celebrate the light.

Pray for me.

I don't know if its the stress of my upcoming finals. I don't know if it's just me being stupid. I don't know if it's the problems that I have to go through. I don't know if it's the thought of me having to drive back to San Diego in 5 minutes. I don't know if it's the thought of me probably pulling an all nighter. I don't know if it has to do with any of the above... but I'm not really feeling good now.

pray for me please.

I hate to boast about such things but....

I'm good. Really good. I haven't even done the experiment yet, but I've got my posterboard complete with results, overview, and process down. Now I just have to go do it!

battlescar count

this past weekend (+ Monday) was definitely a beat down for me but real enjoyable. Sunday we had the football game, and Monday was boarding. In a total of a few short hours of football and boarding combined, I've counted a total of 8 injuries/scars.
1 minorly sprained wrist.
1 minorly sprained ankle.
1 scratch on the right side of my waist.
1 scratch on the left side of my waist.
2 bloody scratches on my right leg.
1 scratch on my back.
and 1 nasty scab on my face.

Each time I take a shower, I'm discovering new wounds! Each day a new reminder of the fun of football and snowboarding!