TCHOC

Helping to lead TCHOC's encounter this week was amazing. I really wasn't expecting too much out of it, just go there and support however I could. As the retreat started, I saw something different in the attitudes of the people there, I was definitely out of my element. I was not accustomed to ministering to people that were in High School.
But the thing about Triumphant Church HOC is that they are extremely supportive. After blowing out one of the speakers of the sound system, they continued to sing and support, and they definitely had a lot of energy!
I'm just randomly rambling on, but all in all it definitely was a different experience leading an encounter than being in one.
God definitely helped us through it a lot, and the turn out was good. praise the Lord!

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

Actually... not really.
Today was my third time going to mt. high this year, and it absolutely sucked. It sucked even more than the  first time it went, and it wasn't even winter then and they only had one lift. Today was ice and wind all day... pretty much sucked.
But the last week that I went was pretty legit. Boarding @ Bear for two days, and mt. high for one. Not a bad week at all. I'm really excited to go when more snow comes in, and hopefully by the end of the season I can be legit.

Let us shred, let us shred, let us shred!

100,000 mile club

My car has just reached a new milestone. The 100,000 miles mark.

Dear Car,
Thank you for being so faithful from my adventures to Irvine, LA, Riverside, San Diego, San Francisco, Merced, the list can go on forever. We still got a long way to go, stick with me.

It's hitting old, but until it's dead or i'm dead, ain't nobody gonna stop this ft mobile.

Prayer Room @ UCSD

I am so behind on the posts that I really want to post up so I'll just start with the earliest one. The Prayer room in San Diego. It's nothing special really, just a small room in Price Center owned by IV (for their student body) and dedicated to prayer.
At first I stepped in and was like... "woah, this is so small" but when I looked around I saw so many things that were really encouraging, writing all over the wall (on butcher paper of course) about prayer requests, praise reports, inspiration from the Lord, the list goes on and on. And on that mid finals week day, the 4 of us (Ashley, Alan, Jared, and myself) were able to set apart time to commune with God.
It was encouraging, and (God willing) I hope to have prayer there more often.
Here's some pictures that I took:

It's 6 a.m. and what am i doing up? I just finished a long night of games for a LAN party hosted by my church. Warcraft, Starcraft, CS, you name it. Anyway, that is now added onto the long list of "to post."

Shred City.

It's 12:30 and I have no idea what I'm doing awake. This week has been filled with boarding adventures. From Monday @ Mt. High with Jackie, then Tuesday @ Snow Summit with UCLA + Johnny and Chester, to today (Thursday) with Cat and Jackie.
My lactic acid filled muscles are telling me to just stop and rest, but my mind is telling me to go more! These past couple days have been fun, and time certainly does pass by quickly when you're having fun.
I actually have to wake up at 8 tomorrow to go help my mom work.
Dear Lord, please give me the strength that I need to finish up this week, there's so much I need to do and so little time.
There's actually a lot that I want to blog about, but I'll leave it for another time when I have more energy. But here's a cool picture I took while on the lift:

and a nice view of Big Bear Lake:

Alright! That's it for now, maybe I'll post some more snapshots that I got with my phone later on... Bonsoir mes amis!

Football.

this is one of my earliest night posts.
It's 11:00 p.m. and I'm going to sleep... Craziness.
Anyway, the reason being is that this past week (or so) of eating healthy, working out, trying to rest up, is all going to come for show tomorrow at 1:30 @ Cerritos High School. Come support HoC/A-life as we play at a interchurch tournament.
It's time to play some footb4ll and tear it up.

Go Crimson Tide. Go Ocho Cinco. Br0.

on UCLA and hydroplaning.

So this is pretty ironic, coming after a post on "toning down" but as I am here in front of my computer, with Irving snoring away on my bed, I guess it's time for another Late Night Ramble.

UCLA was pretty eventful, and even though a lot of people were studying, it was good to just chill and hang out after a long finals week. I still can't believe I'm done, and I'm just making so many plans for the break already. We spent a looong time in UCLA playing Apples to Apples, running around in the rain, and just grabbing food at the commons and in-n-out. After the long night, Irving decided to play his Glee soundtrack all the way back home... we got lost, and we hydroplaned. a lot.
If I counted how many times, probably well over 20, most were tiny ones that made my heart skip beats, and some were decently long ones that woke me right up, praise the Lord there wasn't anything big though. We got back safely and in one piece, but it definitely was one of the scarier times that I've had while driving. And for now, it looks like this rain isn't going away.

I just wanted to blog a little bit, now it's time to go to sleep. Goodnight world.

Toning down.

This is my first finals week of second year, and it's really different than any of my first year finals weeks.
Last year I drove to Irvine, only to have Dave drive me to Riverside and then LA to pick up Kuan.
This year, I've been just sleeping, and chilling, and sort of studying, but I've definitely toned down a lot.

I do miss driving around, "fun training" if you will, and just messing around. But the one thing that I have learned is that I need to moderate what I'm doing, especially if I want to do well. This finals week seems really boring, but it's good just being in San Diego and just resting.
Finals are definitely really hard this quarter, sitting through 2 and a half hours for my philosophy final was soo difficult. But the one thing that I am definitely looking forward to is the football tournament this Sunday!

It's been so long since I've played real competition, probably my last was my badminton tournament in UCLA last year. But I'm so pumped and that's really what gets me through my finals is thinking that at the end of this week, I'll be able to just play ball! (there is snowboarding too, but I have a whole season to blog about that!)

Last final tomorrow morning! Praise the Lord!

2000+

So I recently checked my blog visitor count and I've reached 2000 reads. I figure half of them are me visiting my site over and over again. But in all reality, when I first made the blog I didn't expect that many people to read it, but then I guess I underestimated the power of RSS.

Anyway, thanks for all you who read through my life. My ins and outs, ups and downs, and that are always checking up on me! I really do appreciate it a lot!

YY

Denny's @ 4 a.m.

I'm sitting at Denny's at 3:43 a.m. in the morning trying to study. Outside the crisp, cool air gives me the shivers right to my very bones. But once I stepped foot into Denny's I found refuge in the perfectly heated diner, sipping on my unlimited refills hot chocolate, and attempting to study. The funny thing is that the first thing that came to my mind was to blog.
I don't know...I have so much to say, but I really should get studying. I am at a point of great confusion, possibly frustration, and just a mix of emotions. BLAH.
Anyway, time to study.

Merced pt.2 lg. 7

Going to Merced I was reminded of a time back in my senior year of High School. Acceptance letters hadn't came out yet, but I felt the Lord leading me to Merced. And I had my mind set, pretty much ready to go, all I had to do was ask a couple people their opinions and if anyone had a good enough reason for me to go somewhere else then I'd pray about it again.
And then came the big envelopes, UC Merced (ease), UC Riverside (ease), UC Davis (surprised), UC San Diego (REALLY SURPRISED). And then my two small rejection letters from Irvine and LA.
But then even with my acceptance to San Diego I still had my mind set on Merced, and then I talked to my Pastor and he said "you still have a duty to you family, if you go to Merced it'll be too far."
And so I made my decision to go to San Diego.

Now that I look back and I sometimes get to thinking how it would be like if I went to Merced. I wonder how different I would be, what I would be doing, and what kind of problems I would be going through. I know that I God would definitely be showing me different things in probably extremely different ways, and God would be taking me through totally different struggles and trials. And when I think that, I get into this mode of wishing that I went to Merced because then I wouldn't have to be going through the various things that I'm going through now.
But on the drive back to home, I was reminded and encouraged by a sister that "there is a purpose for everything" and that I am where I am for a reason. And God really is teaching me a lot...but it's tough. I recently read a pretty funny quote:
"nobody ever said that life was going to be easy... but nobody ever said it was going to be this hard."
I found that pretty interesting, but you live and you learn right?

This is probably the closest I've ever come to regretting something, but in all reality, things could be worse.

Anyway, Merced was really encouraging. Getting up there was a struggle, I won't go into detail but the devil attacked me in a harsh way and my attitude (half the way up) was definitely not on blessing them. But after a quick stop at Denny's and 5 cups of hot chocolate and some fellowship with the people in my car, the Lord lifted my spirit up again.
While we were there we handed out fliers to people on campus and I realized that Merced people are so chill. They actually take time to stop and see what it's really about, and they rarely blew me off. That made me so comfortable and it got me really going on inviting these Mercedians to the large group.
I feel like every time I go up, the brothers and sisters there are so welcoming and they make me feel so happy and joyful. Goodness, God is doing a great work in Merced and I encourage each of those that read this blog of mine to say a short prayer for the campus and for their InterVarsity group.
And if you are from Merced and are reading this, Keep up the good work! And I'll be back soon!

This feels like a long blog (it took me two times to write it). Sorry that you had to endure through it all.

Reblog: On grace.

Reblog: Grace Fang


oh the irony of how much I am blogging on xanga instead of tumblr thinking that it'll be more private this way when a blog is meant to just be your transparent self to the world.

Today is one of those days where I really don't know what God is doing in my life. I feel like I've been wandering in clouds for so long. stumbling. bruising. And time isn't clearing anything up. So this is what it feels like to really love someone so much and have it hurt when it is not reciprocated. This is a glimpse of what Jesus felt on the Cross. These few days, I've been learning how all the struggles, hurts, and uncertainties I deal with, Jesus went BEFORE me and understands. When I can't even muster up the words to talk about how I feel or when I can't even believe reality, in silence, He understands.

Grace is such a hard thing to live out and carry. I've also been realizing that love isn't complete without grace.




Let me feel You.
be so real.


I don't know if this is how I feel. I have a feeling that it is...and yet, I don't want to understand. This "love" will be my breaking point, and still it will be my saving grace. I yearn for the day where I can see the "girl of my dreams," sometimes I wish I could just *click* and fast forward through all of this pain. But I come back to reality and realize it's just some movie fantasy only dreamt upon by cowards. Coward... I'd rather be one than go through all of this.
But Jesus never said that. So I'm not going to think that. How stupid of me to even say that...
oh grace, how I can sympathize with you.