Unity

We have safely arrived in China!!! In the midst of prepping, chilling, watching intense videos, worshipping, leading small groups, etc. God has really blessed me with a wonderfully unified team. To be blatantly honest, I was a bit worried on the clash of personalities, and the unintentional stepping on toes and getting on each others nerves. But, so far we are doing an awesome job as a team.

I'm blessed by their willingness to just do things without questioning. I'm blessed by their willingness to just eat together even with conflicting interests. I'm so blessed with their submissive attitude when I say we are going to do something.

These next two days will be free time for us to get even closer and to have time to train, pray, and share with each other. Please continue to pray for us and for God to continue keep our attitudes in check.

I will update as soon as possible!!

God Bless,

YY

Lift off in 1.

Showering with warm water.
Eating Mexican food.
Playing with my dogs.
Hanging with church friends.
Walking around the beach.
6 way webcamming on oovoo.
Driving my SUV.
Sitting at the hub.

All things that I can only do in America. Well, not really but I forsure won't be able to do it while I'm on missions for the next month. Showering this morning I just realized that even though I'm okay with cold showers, pest infested beds, meatless food, and lots of walking through the mountains, I'm going to miss all of this comfortableness.

With a lot of people asking how I'm feeling about leaving, I guess I'll spill my thoughts here...
A couple months ago, I would've said I'm dying to leave. I'm dying to get away from all this "stuff" in my life. I'm ready to leave this comfort-zone, many of you would call it life, to get to a place where nothing but the simplicity of life can satisfy. Since coming back from China last year, so many things have happened, so much change that I feel like I need a breather.

A month ago, I would've told you that I'm kinda nervous. A tad bit nervous on my ability to lead this years team. I was so worried about my ability to lead a chinese missions team, that I really forgot about the purpose in all of it. But nonetheless I was still anxious to leave.

2 weeks ago, after my church retreat, I saw a change in my perspective. I came to the point where I realized that despite my insecurities of leading the team, despite all my wrong reasons for going on missions (to get away from home), that I was going on missions for the Lord and with the goal of doing His will in China.

This past week I realized how much I'll miss home. I'm at the point where I want to stay home so I can minister to friends, my momm, and especially church family.

Put simply, I'm very conflicted. I mean, regardless of what I feel or what I don't feel I'm still going. But there are just so many things running around my head that I'm worried I'll easily lose focus.


So please pray for me, to realize that God's plan would be my plan. That God's heart, would be my heart. And that God would just give me the heart of compassion for the mission field that I will be embarking on in less than 40 hours.

Paul Han.

I haven't ever done two posts in the same hour, let alone in a day.
But after a short but sweet conversation, and after a somewhat emo-ish toned post. I sure have to say the Lord has blessed me enough to let me sleep with a smile tonight.

YY Liew

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Paul!

Paul

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ＨＩ

YY Liew

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how are you?

Paul

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preparing leaving school

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just fine

YY Liew

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are you going to gan en gong zuo this year?

Paul

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YES

YY Liew

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really?? YES!

Paul

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YES

YY Liew

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me too!

Paul

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with some Brothers and Sisters

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that's nice

YY Liew

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I am so excited! but I must sleep, goodnight!

Paul

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good night ,nice to see you again

This Paul is one of the most awesome Christians in China that I know. A man of good faith, good nature, respectful, respectable, and SO much more. From helping me explain the importance of Christianity during my first year in missions. To helping me preach the gospel (and translate) to one of my awesome students my second year (he came to my school even though he wasn't in the program). I'm so honored to even know this man of God.
I could write on about him forever, but oh PRAISE THE LORD.

Personality types.

Thus far my summer has been filled with multiple road bumps. Most of these are comprised of the problems in relationships with friends and even family. These "road bumps" made me start to re-evaluate myself a bit.
E to I. What usually is my strength that spurs me onto being able to do more has become my weakness. My extro-side has become inverted to making me seem more and more introverted.
N to S. As I tackle each task, from senior retreat to missions preparation, I feel very accomplished. But in order to do these things well my intuitive side starts to lie a bit dormant, which brings out the "S" side of me.
F to T... BLEH. this is too hard.

The point is, that throughout the past few weeks, I have had a tendency to act differently. Who I've been hates who I am. But who I am is necessary to do the things that I need to do.
I guess I'm not making too much sense, but God is good regardless.

~ramble. ramble. ramble.