The Cravings of a somewhat honest man.

I crave the desire to pursue God with everything that I am.
   This quarter has been a blur. Classes are the same, days just turn into routine, and I fall into the trap that deceives my mind in being complacent with a simple prayer and reading a short devotional. I want more. I want to pursue God.

I crave the willingness to put aside anything that is not God glorifying.
   5 seasons of Friday Night Lights, countless nights of Halo, hours spent on facebook... in summary idleness... I get so caught up in my own self-satisfying  fleshly desires that I easily forget about bringing glory to God.

I crave the strength to stand up as a man after God's own heart.
     And yet through all of these things, God has given me the strength to push through everything. God has given me immense, and immeasurable strength to overcome so many obstacles. But I want more. I want the strength to do encourage others, I want the strength to bless others, I want the strength to live in a lifestyle that God is calling me towards.

I crave for things to go right.
    I guess the downside of this craving is that my right can be different from God's right. I just want my cravings to align with the desires of God.

God has been doing a lot in me these past weeks, and I have been learning a lot. But quite frankly, I'm not satisfied with myself. I want more to be done, and I want to see things be accomplished. I'm tired. I'm worn out. But I'm ready for work to be done. "Here I am, send me..."

Lord let Your Glory Fall.

on my ankles and knee.

After an intense week of physical activities (last week). My left knee and both ankles started hurting, and I would find myself limping on my way to class. So I finally got around to getting it checked up... and what do you know, runners knee and minorly sprained ligaments in my ankles.
The doc. told me that I should be resting for 3-6 weeks with little to none stress on my ankles and knee. She gave me exercises to do, and instructions on how to treat it and rehabilitate it into ship shape.
In all honesty, I've been pretty bummed. And I know it's not like I lost my legs or anything, but I have a small glimpse of what it means to be appreciative of what God has given us and our abilities.
And now thinking about what I'll be doing these next few weeks, I guess it's good cause I can use time I normally use for sports to catch up on readings, devotionals, and school work. And who knows maybe I can start working on my throwing game =x and upperbody stuff.

爱因为在心中

我在听者艘歌的时候， 很想着我的学生。很想着我在中国的时候。我真的要回去看他们，很想要跟他们大篮球，教他们英语，当他们的朋友，跟他们一起唱歌。 Aiyo.
This year is different, even after two months of being back, I still talk to my students and my CCVs. And when I listen to these chinese songs I can't help but think of everything that happened in the month that I was in 四川. It sometimes feels like a movie, I go into these flashbacks, and I get really sad.
Everything has fallen back into routine, the school, church, homegroup, not that things are routine, but life has gone back to "normal" but now it doesn't feel so normal anymore. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy serving in these ministries, but sometimes it just feels so... unreal. I don't want to be living a comfortable life.

Here's the song：http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YsxxpScs12g

and lyrics:

当我睁开双眼每一天
Everyday, when I open my eyes,

都会记得大家的笑脸
I will remember everyone's smiling faces.

明白心中勇敢又多了一点
I will understand that I have grown a little braver in my heart,

曾经哭泣也会看不见
And the once crying spells would be seen no more.

未来总会有别的喜悦
The future will always bring other pleasant surprises.

就让时间翻开崭新的一页
So let time turn over a brand new chapter,

你的音符你的脸
Your notes, your face,

有种无声的语言
Possess a kind of soundless language.

教我不退缩要坚持著信念
It teaches me not to retreat, but hang on to my beliefs.

用音符画一个圈
Using a musical notation to draw a circle,

经过都会被纪念
Thus all that has passed will be remembered.

我想爱永远会留在你心间
I wish to remain forever in the space of your heart.

每个人都拥有一个梦
Mei ge ren dou yong you yi ge meng
Everyone has a dream.

即使彼此不相同
Ji shi bi ci bu xiang tong
Even if our dreams are different,

能够与你分享
Neng gou yu ni fen xiang
Being able to share them with you,

无论失败成功都会感动
Wu lun shi bai cheng gong dou hui gan dong
Would move me regardless of whether it is a success or failure -

爱因为在心中
Ai yin wei zai xin zhong
Because love is in the heart.

平凡而不平庸
Ping fan er bu ping yong
It is ordinary, but not prosaic.

世界就像迷宫
Shi jie jiu xiang mi gong
The world is like a maze,

却又让我们此刻相逢
Que you rang wo men ci ke xiang feng our home
But it let us get to know each other.

伤心时你会给我笑脸
When sad, you would bring a smile to my face,

让我感受友爱的原点
And let me feel the origin of friendship's love.

快乐地过有风有雨的岁月
Happily, we passed by the years of struggles,

失望和伤心在所难免
Where disappointment and sadness is inevitable.

都会经历漫长的严寒
We'd all pass through long spells of frosty depressing.

让这一切在我们心中沉淀
Let this sink down in our heart.

用旋律写张信签
Using a vortex to write a bookmark,

放入你的心褃面
And put it in your heart.

手牵手记录我们爱的和弦
Hand in hand, recording the chords that we love.

用音符画一个圈
Use a musical notation to draw a circle,

经过都会被纪念
To ensure all that has passed will be remembered.

我想爱永远会留在你心间
I think love will forever remain in your heart.


Bleh. I should get on studying. Back to reality.