Ministry.

Luke 10:38-42

 ³⁸Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. ³⁹And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet and listened to his teaching. ⁴⁰But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, "Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me." ⁴¹But the Lord answered her, "Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, ⁴²but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her."

Serving in ministry I'm constantly reminded of this short passage. It says that we must not be caught up in it so much that we forget about coming before the Lord and listening to him. The thing about it is that I've never thought of myself as being distracted, at least not from coming before the Lord. Serving, for me, usually entailed coming before the Lord so that I would have the strength to do ministry. But then I started to realize that I was placing the standard of "sitting before the Lord." Which consisted of seeking the Lord everyday, but only conveniently. And I think that is something that I have been learning throughout this quarter, how to seek the Lord in everything that I do, and everywhere in which I do it.

This past quarter has been quite an interesting one. Trials have been hitting me from the left and right, but this time the trials are fewer but they are definitely harder. Sometimes I feel like I would want to just click the fast forward button (watched part of click today) and just get this part of life over with, but a lot of the time I want to just stay in the moment forever. There were times where I felt like I was on top of the world, but more times than not I felt like I had just lost all hope to fight. The thing is though that I am far from done with one of the biggest, longest, hardest battle that I've possibly fought in my entire life.

God is teaching me so much, but sometimes I wish that he could just take it all away. But then again thats where the fun and excitement and sponteneousism from life comes from.

Speaking of spontaneous, I'm in Irvine now. Gosh, I need to stop with this fun training, it'll be the death of me.

I guess this post wasn't mostly about ministry, but I just decided to ramble...what am I saying....goodnight world.