So many times things don't feel right. I don't feel like I'm in the right place. I don't feel like I'm in the right school, I don't feel like I'm in the right class, I don't feel like I'm in the right ministries, I don't feel like I'm in the right house, I don't feel like I have the friends that I really desire, I don't feel like I know what I want, I don't feel like anything is right.
And the ironic thing is that I don't have the right to say any of this... despite all of these feelings, I have been sloppy with my daily devotions, sometimes seemingly nonexistent, but sometimes spending hours just worshipping. More often the former rather than the latter, I once again become that man that looks in the mirror and remembers how much God has blessed me beyond anything what I deserve.
And I'm at this point in my life where I don't hear God's voice, not because it isn't there but because I'm not actively pursuing Him or even giving Him the time of day to listen. I catch myself deciding between watching House on my recorded DVR and doing my devotions.
Things must change.
"So I await the words that you say."
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