Letter to a friend.

(Sorry if this post sounds emo or whatevs, I'm just venting about a small frustration in my life at the moment)

Even in these times when I am not in the mood for building relationships, I have really tried to get to know you better. Unfortunately, as much as I've tried and even put myself out there, I've only made myself feel like an idiot. Given that you are busy and what not, I just get this feeling that you don't care about our relationship as friends, so I'm going to stop initiating. Expecting that things have changed throughout these past years, I really thought we could have been close friends. No, (anybody thats reading this) I don't have feelings for this person. It's not that I don't care about you anymore, it's just that I don't want to make the effort. And the ironic thing is that all this time you had me fooled into thinking that you actually cared.

Crazy and desperate as this post might sound, I'm only posting it here cause theres a 99% chance you won't read this. Hopefully one day we'll be able to have an honest conversation with each other and get to know each other better. Until then, I'm just going to chill with friends that legitly seem to care about me as a friend. Needless to say, I'm pretty frustrated at how things are at the moment, but I'll live. God has definitely given me a lot of peace about this situation so hopefully I'll see you around.