pathetic-ness

Yes, I'm pathetic and I know it, but for some odd reason I'm okay with it.

You probably won't ever see or hear about how pathetic I am, and that's fine by me.
But take a deep look into my heart and my soul, and if you're lucky enough you'll catch a glimpse of it.
A glimpse of the times and memories that still dwell in my mind.
The things that I must rid myself to press on.
The heartache is gone, and I feel numb.
But in this numbness, I find my refuge in the Lord.