My dad told me that I had "many swords, but none of them are sharp." I can do a lot of things pretty well, but I can't seem to excel at any one thing. As much as I try to focus everything that I have into doing something extremely well, there seems to be this barrier that just stops me, some sort of invisible ceiling. And looking back at these past few years, months, weeks, and days, I realize the one thing that I especially suck at is relationships. I wouldn't even call it a sword, probably a toy dagger, something that would be for a child to play with.
Yes, I'm talking about girl relationships, but also things like family relationships, maintaining close friends, etc. I just seem to let things slip away, and I just give up or don't care. The fact that I've lost countless of my best friends and close friends just saddens me.
And I guess if you've been around me recently, or have talked to me recently, you've probably realized that I don't talk too much, or I don't go out too much, or I don't care about going out anymore.
I kinda want to lock myself up and hibernate til this season of my life is over...
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