Pictures of China

During my last three days in New York, I've been going through most of the pictures from this year's mission's trip. There are a little less than 30 gbs of pictures and video and I wanted to filter it out.

While looking at each picture I came to the realization of why I felt slightly unsatisfied during this year's trip to China.

Frankly, it's because I did not give it my all, my all to push myself out of my comfort zone and my all to see the Lord's work done in Guizhou. I felt like many times it was me that was running , but I know that if I was to give my all, it would be my all to have God move through me, to course through my very veins, my very thoughts, and my very words.

I tried so hard to look for every opportunity to "plant the seeds" but when those opportunities came, I was too scared to open my mouth. I tried so hard to find every chance to "water the seeds" but was too focused on what I can do, and not what the Lord could do.

My mindset was all about me, it was all about what I could do and what I could say. As I continued to reflect upon the things that happened, I realized that I had a good time. A too damn good time.

And now as we go into a full year of preparation for next year's TGS Missions, I'm going to give it my all, I'm going to give God my all.