About a year ago, at around 2 a.m. I heard a yelp, and my mom start yelling "YY! Come here!" As I rushed into my mom's room my dog was foaming at the mouth, urinating and defecating all over, and was had crazy muscle spasms. I couldn't sleep for the rest of that night. Nope, not after seeing my dog (who I had since it was born) go into a seizure like that.
And after a little bit over a year, he still goes into seizures regularly. For the past 3 weeks he hasn't had one, but in the last 2 days that I was home, he had 5. All of which I witnessed and had to clean up for.
I can't stand it. I can't stand watching my dog go into those seizures, and after a couple minutes of aimless wandering (not responding to anything), he would act normal, as if nothing happened. Earlier today my mom said if I couldn't figure out a way to fix this, she was going to give him away. And as she muttered the last of that sentence, I told her to shut up and I hung up.
The reason I'm up this late is because I'm trying to figure out how to "fix" this problem. As I was reading through websites, my eyes got stuck at a sentence "a veterinarian may advise euthanasia." Not that I would want it, not that I am going to let it happen, but my brother mentioned putting him to sleep too...
But no, I won't let it happen. I feel so helpless now, and even though there are SO many other problems that I need to deal with, I really need to solve this. After all, he is my dog...
hmm.
ReplyDeletewell the question is whether or not its worth it to allow him to suffer for the moments he is normal.
your call. pray about it.
yeaa its pretty hard seeing your dogs suffer =\
ReplyDeletei had to watch/deal with watching both my dogs suffer from diabetes and arthritis =[
Hey YY,
ReplyDeleteI'm really glad I came across your blog. I only read the first two-- but already I'm really loving the honesty and heart that you pour into this blog. I know that you're probably going through some tough times right now-- but all in all I hope that you come to see it through His eyes and not only your own. It's so hard for us when things are tough because we become so consumed and concern as to how they hurt us, how they affect us, and how they arent going according to what we desired or planned-- but as hard as it is, let's keep striving to see it through His eyes-- knowing that our God is God, and that He is good, and that He works out all things for His mighty purposes. I'm learning more and more that all things do indeed happen in a manner that exalts and magnifies God the most-- so let's keep praying that God would glorify Himself through our circumstances, as hard as it can be sometimes
Let me know how I can better pray for you.
Hope you're running hard for the Lord :)
Sharon