starbucks.

The smell of expresso,
the coolness of the A/C,
the relaxing music,
starbucks.

It's been a while since I've had a good day to myself. And honestly what better way to spend it than at starbucks.

Things have been quite a bit hectic recently, but Senior year is definitely one I'm going to remember. In the short 3 weeks that we've had so far feels like a years worth. Through all of this hectic-ness, I find so much peace in just... being by myself.
Having time to reflect and think about the things going on my life and (hopelessly) trying to organize emotions and thoughts, for lack of better terms, is liberating. These days I wake up thinking to myself, that I have a choice to live all out, or half-assed (excuse the language). And that if I wanted to give my 100%, it is purely my decision. ANd this thought hit me:

How dare I not settle for less than what I deserve, when I'm not giving God all that He deserves.

That's when I saw the fullness and beauty of God's grace. That, in spite of me living such a complacent lifestyle, I still dare to ask God for more...

I realized a lot of things about myself, how I need to step up my game in studying, how much i need to find rest in God, how pathetic I really am, and a lot about my future... but I'll save those for another starbucks day.

adios.