Finally settling down.

After a month in China, a couple days in Vegas, 2 weeks in NY, and 3 days in Yosemite, I finally get a chance to sit down and relax.

I sit and I stare blankly at my computer screen as my chinese music plays in the background. And the only thing I can think about is how much I miss China. I miss serving, I miss the CCVs, I miss the students, I miss life in China. And as hard as I try to fight "settling down," I know I will hit that point soon of being comfortable.

Tonight was the first time I've ever asked myself, "what am I living for?" Yes, the cliche answer, I'm living for God. But what is God calling me to live for? Surely living for God does not give a clear direction on what it is I should be doing.

I miss these guys. a lot.