tossing and turning.

I hate those nights when I lay in bed tossing and turning, unable to sleep for hours because it seems like there's a war going on inside of my head. Last night was one of those nights. I laid in bed for 3 hours trying to fall asleep, but as soon as I laid down, thoughts started racing around my mind. At the moment, I'm not sure how I should feel, what I should do, there are so many more important things to worry about that I just don't feel like caring... but I do. I'll admit I'm a fool when it comes to matters like this, but to not have learned from my past mistakes I've become worse than a fool. Then again the more I think about it, the more I realize that I deserve these things. They're the result of my actions, my foolishness, and my idiocy.