much responsibility.
Today I came to the point where I wished I had never done any of this at all. I think it might've been easier if I just kept with the routine of going back home each weekend.
This quarter has been quite the frustrating one. I've dug myself into a hole so deep that I don't think I can get myself out of. In the past four weeks I've had more disagreements with people, gotten angry at people, made more "enemies", heard crap being talked about me by others.. more than any other time in my entire life.
I might be exaggerating certain things a bit, but that's how I generally feel at the moment. I know I have my shortcomings. I know I've made many mistakes. I know I've slipped. Believe me, I know I'm human.
And in this time of weakness, I remember a prayer I prayed at the end of last quarter.
"Lord, challenge me, test me, try me, break me because... I am too comfortable"
Now, it all makes sense. Sure, I could have skipped all this "drama" if I went back home every week. But I would have missed out on all these strong relationships and friendships that I've built over these few months.
thank you God for listening to my prayer. continue to break me. continue to grow me.
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