Today, one of my close sisters left for China. After reading the tweet about leaving to LAX, I immediately was hit by an bunch of emotions. Sadness, Happiness, Frustration, Envy, the list can go on and on. I think the biggest thing that was on my heart was jealousy... I was happy that she could go serve at the school that I served at this past summer, but I was so sad that it wasn't me that was going. After a bit of that I immediately felt convicted. Convicted because after a longer than usual PMS (post missions syndrome) I fell back into the normal cycle of life, something that I did not want to happen. I stopped thinking about them, stopped praying for them, stopped talking to them on QQ, and then I just became frustrated at myself for falling into this mindset.
And then immediately after that, I picked up her mission letter and began to read... and as I was reading I was comforted. As badly as I want to just buy a ticket to China right now and leave, I still have my duties as a college student to fulfill. The inside of her mission letter spoke a lot about God's perfect timing. God is so funny..
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