Break Me.

Dear Lord,

I've been so caught up recently in my school work, my internship, my job, and just a whole lot of other things that I have greatly failed to remember You in everything that I do. I feel like I have lost the heart of worship, I feel like I've dug myself into a pit that I cannot climb out of, I feel like I've become so complacent with simply calling You my savior. It's been weeks since I last opened my Bible to do my daily devotions. In fact, I don't even know where my Bible is.
I'm weak, pathetic, stubborn. Lord I need you to break me. You've done it before, and I've reached this point again where I need you to break me even harder. I need you to break me into pieces so small that when i'm reformed I will hardly recognize myself. I'm not satisfied with where I am, I want to be better, I want to be stronger, I want to go harder for you. I want to be a man of God respectable by all means, I want to be a good leader to those who need one, I want to be a legitimate Christ follower.
God, please, I beg you. Once again I need you to push me further than I've ever been. I need you to put me into a place of desperation where all I can cling onto is you. Jesus, I don't want the money, I don't want the girls, I don't want anything else.
Break me. Mold me. Make me more and more like You.

Amen.