Saturday.
Never have I had a more boring Saturday in probably the history of my life.
Normally there would be my mom yelling at the top of her lungs for me to clean my room, and unfortunately, I would do just that.
Normally, there would be a Boy Scout meeting all the way in Monterey Park, where I would be bored out of my mind doing the routine.
Most of the time, since college started, I would have something to study for and therefore give myself an excuse to "hub it up."
Always, I would have my car parked in my driveway ready to take me wherever I steered my wheel.
Unfortunately, today was not the average Saturday. Not in the least bit.
Woke up to people chatting, and realized some of my mom's old friends from NY were visiting. They didn't have enough space for me to go with them to dim sum, so I ended up staying at home. I got to watch Bolt (my brother downloaded it), and take a long nap. After my nap, I just played guitar for a while, played some online chess (talk about boring), and just sat around. At about 10 o'clock I ended up at the Liu's house and just "chilled" mostly with Mia (their dog), but I got to talk to others too for a bit before I got bored and left.
Frankly, today was a boring day. It was depressing, and right now I feel VERY depressed. I feel as if nothing went right today, and everything went wrong. Today was a day that I questioned myself in so many aspects of my life, and came to a conclusion. I have nothing.
Nothingness. In the time of just emptiness, and when I just sat in front of my computer, I felt compelled to ask myself what am I doing, what should I do, and just evaluate myself in many parts of my life. And I came to the conclusion that I cannot pursue my goals and hope to succeed in life. Rather, I need to keep my eyes focused and surrender all.
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